Thoughts of a geek

28 May 2009

Swing swing

Filed under: Me — Tags: , , , , , , , — qwandor @ 11:30 pm

Swing swing.
Swing, swing.
It is cloudy tonight, though there are some bare patches. Stars visible briefly. The clouds move quite rapidly. I can see the Southern Cross. Now I cannot. The breeze gets up a bit.
10:14 pm now. Early, comparatively. I wonder whether I will sleep tonight.
I can hear something breathing heavily. Irregularly. Some animal I guess, but I cannot see it. Looking around for it, listening carefully. Unnerving.
Back to the swing. Music back on.

Time to stop swinging. Need some certainty in life. On whom to rely, to depend?
Here I sit. Not in the hall of the mountain king. Ouch, too loud suddenly.

The breathing seems to have stopped. Odd.
Perhaps no human will keep eir word. God does, apparently. Not quite sure what to make of it though.
God should be all I need, apparently. But human relationships would be nice too. Should be nice. Some sort of connection? I am not sure how to find it, or make it. Things seem not to work out. What does that mean? Why?
Always why. And how.
Ha, and when.

Just walking now. Downhill. Perhaps I will run later.

I really must get some decent headphones.
What would it be like to be able to control my mind more? Less wandering?More productive? More focussed, less distractable, pointlessly and uselessly sidetracked? What is important in life? What can I do? What can I even hope to do, to achieve?
Keep walking.
Cannot stop, cannot stand still, going nowhere.

Ran. Just a little.

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2 Comments »

  1. *hugs*

    Christians are part of the whole God-relationship thing. And we’re human, so hey :). And yeah. Perhaps no human will keep their word. Very few humans I know do on a regular basis. But they try. And God, who holds us together and keeps us sane, always keeps his promises.

    I don’t know. Sometimes you think too much, you know? So much so that I think you get lost in your thinking.

    Comment by Me. — 29 May 2009 @ 5:03 am

    • Think too much. Hmm. Maybe. Is there a better alternative?

      Also, God keeps us sane?

      Comment by qwandor — 29 May 2009 @ 6:41 pm


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